now i get it

Tuesday wasn't a good day for me. I was extremely irritable and emotional. I couldn't understand WHY i was crying when I lost my keys. It's really not THAT big of a deal. Then, somewhere shortly after midnight, it hit me. No, not PMS. An unhappy anniversary. If you don't like sad stories, please stop reading.

In 2001, I was working at a radio station in Wausau, WI and became pretty good friends with one of the sales girls, Sarah. She was a couple years younger than me, and we always had something to talk about. She'd been through a lot, made it through, and was so much fun to be around. In August of that year, I left Wausau to move back to Madison. We stayed in touch. I had pictures of her from my going-away party. We were going to reconnect at the stations Halloween party...I would attend for the fun of it. I was still close with a bunch of people there. One email I got from her stated "Don't show those pictures to anyone until I see them! I'll email more when I'm not so busy." That was sometime in September '01. It would be the last. On October 15, 2001 at about 10:30am, I got an email from another salesperson at that station. Sarah had been killed in a motorcycle accident on 10/12. I'll never forget anything about the situation. About her...or about how I found out. I was so lost. I'd never been through something like that before. All I could do was cry and tell people about her. Carry around pictures of her and show people that never knew her. Tell them how great she was. I attended the halloween party with a picture of her on a lanyard around my neck. I needed her there with me. I cannot believe it's been 4 years. Sarah, I miss you so much.