Control

It can be an evil thing. But can it be a good thing? I like to have control sometimes. When there's a project to be done at work and I know how to do it, I want to do it. If someone else gets to do it, I am disappointed. I want to show that I can do it. I think the reason that I do so much at home is because of the control I want to have. If someone says that they need to find this-or-that at the store or online, i'm the first to look and hopefully say "here it is!" However, that's where it ends. I'm not the type that needs to be the one that drives wherever we go or ever say "my way or the highway".

the reason I bring this up is because of a girl i know. i used to be good friends with her. i haven't been in a long time, but she's a friend of a friend, so i see her sometimes and hear about her more often. she's just about to turn 30 and on her 2nd marriage. she has a son from a previous marriage (almost 6) that is not allowed in her house because of her husband. oh wait...he can be there if her husband's daughter from a previous marriage is there as well. her son lives with her parents. the last time she was out with a group of us, she had to wear a sweatshirt that covered her ass, be home by midnight, and promise to have sex with her husband when she got home. the other time i saw her, her husband was there. i watched the way he treated her and talked to her, and it was so sad. it was at a wedding reception, and she couldn't dance. with anyone. she couldn't even do the dollar dance with the groom. she sat on his lap most of the night. the worst part is that she was also friends with my friend that was killed by her controlling husband(who also killed himself) in 2001. i don't get how she can witness such a horrible thing and then marry someone just as controlling. it makes me sad to know she has such low self-esteem.